I have to tell you that having Karis has been one of the most refreshing things spiritually for me.
I had heard from lots of friends that this was one of the harder times for them spiritually. So I am so thankful to have that heads up for them. I don't think I would've been so intentional otherwise. I also don't think I would've been so intentional to GIVE MYSELF A BREAK from what I think I "should be doing."
I have yet to have "quiet time" as I've done in the past. It's been different. And that's been great!
My mentor and good friend, Tammie Head, has really inspired me and encouraged me to stop living a performance based Christianity, but rather to simply practice living in His presence. So that's what I've been doing. I'm intent to live in His presence. And I'm less intent to do it the way I've always told myself and heard it should be done.
Having Karis has opened up the door for me to go back to the basics.
As a shower gift we were given this book for Karis:
Most mornings we read a chapter out of the book. Then I am intent to apply what we've learned and talk about it during the day. She just sits there now, but in the future I'm already spinning with ways we can apply it during the day. The writing is really incredible. I am amazed each day at the depth of the content while maintaining a language geared for children (not to mention great pictures).
Well yesterday was the story of Adam and Eve, it was called: "The Terrible Lie."
The way Ms. Lloyd-Jones wrote the story stopped me in my tracks and made me realize a truth in this story I had never quite applied.
Here is a snippet from that day, please take the time to read it:
As soon as the snake saw his chance, he slithered silently up to Eve, 'Does God really love you?' the serpent whispered. 'If he does, why won't he let you eat the nice, juicy, delicious fruit? Poor you, perhaps God doesn't want you to be happy.'
The snake's words hissed into her ears and sunk down deep into her heart, like poison. Does God love me? Eve wondered. Suddenly she didn't know anymore."
Sitting in the world's most perfect rocker, holding my sweet daughter, I was broken over the lies I have believed and still choose to believe. I was broken for the lies that Karis would be attacked with. Then we had an incredible time of prayer, both for myself and Karis, declaring that I would believe that He loves us. I begged God that I would be able to show Karis as she grows up how to fight against the lie that God doesn't love her. That she would choose to believe that one day herself.
I hope today that you believe that He loves you! Whatever lie you've been believing speak it out loud and share it with someone else. Don't allow satan to "slither up silently" in your life.