Do you ever have those days that you just feel in a funk? If you are a woman of any age, you are lying if you said no.
You know those days when you just feel... what's the best word?... blah.
Maybe you just want to cry all day, or if you don't cry, the fact that you can't makes you want to cry even more (not that I can relate to that one). Maybe you just can't pull yourself off the couch or you can't sit yourself down. Just a funk.
I am not an emotional or sensitive person. I'm just not one of those girls, never have been. Every so often during that time of the month I would have a day of being in a funk but not really. Usually I deep cleaned the house and I was better after that (something all my past roommates and husband have loved).
Well about a week ago, when I welcomed the third trimester I welcomed in a funk that I have never experienced. Like take PMS and multiply it by ten or maybe a hundred.
Everything made me want to cry. Nothing made me want to cry. Seriously one day I was sitting on our couch crying and sweet Chris just sat their and rubbed my back as I cried and tried to say: "And... (sob)... the worst part... (sob)... is... (sob)... I DON'T EVEN... (SOB. SOB)... KNOW WHY I'M CRYING!... (SOB SOB SOB SOB)."
I was/am one hot mess. Thankfully my hubs thinks I'm really cute when I cry.
Everything and everyone hurt my feelings and/or annoyed me. If they talked to me it annoyed and/or hurt me and if they didn't it had the same result. This was a lose-lose set up.
Anyone out there every have a week/day/hour/minute like this?
Being a woman is so fun sometimes isn't it? Insert sarcastic grin here.
Anyway, the past few days I've really been praying about my attitude and how I need to respond. And the Lord continues to bring one verse to mind:
"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you." Philippians 4:4-9
I have realized that I was using the fact that because I am a woman and women have moody days that meant my moppiness (not sure if that's a word) was justified. But as a Christian I can't believe that and the Bible at the same time.
Even during... rather, especially during, my "funk days" I need to be even more intentional to "think about such things" that are "true, noble, right, pure, lovely and admirable." Then, and only then, will the peace come. Peace doesn't come from sitting on the couch, or being as busy as I can, or pushing the emotions down and putting on a happy face, or eating a bowl (or two) of ice cream, or _________."
Just thought someone else out there would want to be encouraged by what He gave me this morning.