Do you have a reputation?

Don't you love when a message begins to repeat itself to you.
It's like the Lord is literally grabbing you by the shoulders and shaking you to finally see what He has been trying so hard to get you to see.
I read a blog during my lunch by a trusted leader in women's ministry on reputation.
Shortly after that I started on my Bible Study and the very thing the Lord showed me through it today was on reputation.

The breakthrough, really more of a question:

Do you trust God with your reputation?
Do you really trust Him?

I have found myself in a situation where my reputation has been challenged. I think this happens to all of us from time to time. Not in a big way. Not in a way that even matters to share the details. But challenged none the less.

And it has been eating me up. I hate it. I really do.
I've been praying for the Lord to free me from it. To take it away. To make it all disappear. To clear up the confusion. To blot it out.

But He hasn't. Probably because I needed to learn this lesson.

Do I trust Him with my reputation?

I've realized that any time I feel like my reputation might be threatened I do whatever I can to protect it. To save it. And I've recently learned the reason-- I have assumed I had something to do with it.

To even say that out loud makes me want to vomit at my own vanity and selfishness. But actions speak louder than words. It's obviously true.

So my prayer today, for myself and for you, is that we would trust Him.
Trust Him to do good in us (Jeremiah 29:11-14).
Trust Him that He has a plan for our life, a real future (same verse).
Trust Him that He is going to use that plan to draw us to Him (save verse again).

And believe what His word says about us:
*scripture was customized with my name added in, obviously it isn't originally like that. I encourage you to read your name where it says my name.

"But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, Becky,
he who formed you, Becky:
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name;
you are mine.

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give _______ for your ransom, ______ and ______ in your stead.
Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give people in exchange for you, nations in exchange for your life.
Do not be afraid, for I am with you;...
everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.”
Lead out those who have eyes but are blind, who have ears but are deaf. All the nations gather together and the peoples assemble. Which of their gods foretold this and proclaimed to us the former things? Let them bring in their witnesses to prove they were right, so that others may hear and say, “It is true.”
“You are my witnesses,” declares the LORD,
“and my servant whom I have chosen,
so that you may know and believe me and understand that I am he.
Before me no god was formed, nor will there be one after me.
I, even I, am the LORD, and apart from me there is no savior.
I have revealed and saved and proclaimed—
I, and not some foreign god among you.
You are my witnesses,” declares the LORD, “that I am God.
Yes, and from ancient days I am he.
No one can deliver out of my hand.
When I act, who can reverse it?”
Isaiah 43: 1-13