Ten years ago I cancelled all my magazine subscriptions. It was something that needed to happen. I felt like it was just too hard for me. I was paying for someone to tell me how not enough I am. How my thighs shouldn't touch, my lipstick should stay on all day, my sex life could rival anything on TV, I already need Botox, I could rock a career and still be a Pinterest pinning Mama, oh, and my wardrobe needed a full overhaul every single season.
I could never compete with the standard I was forming for myself after flipping through those pages each month.
I finally called it all crap and cancelled every single one. It was so freeing for me. Removing those messages was huge for me. I'm not in the loop on anything cool now and I'm probably missing out on some really sassy tricks in the bedroom and I have no clue which celebrity is married or divorced this week and my wardrobe is not on trend because I don't know what is on trend.
This Sunday morning Chris and I both forgot to set our alarms and, miracle of all miracles, all three girls slept until 8:30am! We usually walk out the door for church at 8:20, so we decided to make it a fun family morning. We pulled out all of our craft supplies and stayed at the big table for hours (and Chandler girl jumped away in her jumpy thing).
This past week a popular magazine got delivered to my house on accident along with my Relevant Magazine, so I decided to make a little collage because I had been telling Karis about them. I decided to make one based on the messages that these two magazines are giving us women.
My heart broke. All the things we should think and believe. All the ways we should look. All the plates we should juggle seamlessly. All the aspirations and dreams and achievements.
Ladies, it's crap. It's filtered crap.
You can't be all these things. You can't.
You aren't enough. You can't do it all or have it all.
That's OK. You don't have to be enough.
Our not enough-ness is made perfect and whole and can be used for something so crazy awesome in Christ. That's not health and wellness gospel, that's Bible.
"But he (Jesus) said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong."
Feeling like you can't measure up to all the things the world, and yourself, tells you that you should be? "My grace is sufficient." -Jesus
Tired or overwhelmed? Defeated or discouraged? "My power is made perfect in weakness." -Jesus
You aren't enough. That's Ok. "For when you are weak, then you are strong."
Go to Christ weak. Open your hands to Him and let Him give you the next step to take. Live today for Him. Stop worrying about who you should be or focusing on the facade you see in others. Be you.
Weak, insufficient you. Knowing that really you are strong and fully equipped with His power.