Today as I try to finish up writing the Lent study, I'm doing it scared.
In the coming weeks as I start to fill up my 2017 speaking calendar, I'm doing in scared.
In the coming months as I put together a book proposal for my first book (Not Enough: A Discovery of How Not Awesome We Are... But God. The title is clearly still in the works but this is the gist of the book.) for my dream literary agent, I'm doing it scared.
In the next year as I no longer just dream but make efforts to building a sweet, fun, true community in my neighborhood filled with people I don't yet know, I'm doing it scared.
I'm learning that peace is a facade, at least the way I've defined it.
I became a Christian at 16 and well meaning Christians told me then, "If you don't have peace about something, then maybe Jesus isn't in it. He is the Prince of Peace after all." I've run from so many things because they didn't feel peaceful.
I'm calling that whole idea crap today.
Peace isn't the absence of fear. Peace is confidence that even in the fear Jesus is enough and totally worth it.
I feel certain Abraham was scared when he was walking up Mount Moriah to sacrifice his son Isaac. (Gen 22)
I feel certain as Moses raised his rod to part the Red Sea he was scared beyond belief. (Exodus 14)
I feel certain Esther was scared when she went before the King. (Esther 5)
I'm sure Rahab was scared hiding the spies. (Joshua 6)
I feel confident that David was scared when his son died. (2 Samuel 12)
We know that Jesus was in anguish in the Garden praying before His death. (Luke 22)
We know Saul, who we know as Paul, felt something like fear when Jesus spoke to Him. (Acts 9)
This idea that fear can't coincide with faith is a lie. We need to be done with it.
This fear has kept me living a half hearted life for too long.
This fear keeps us in our Christians bubbles, serving only other Christians, because it's safest there.
This fear keeps us home, spending more time with our remote than real life humans.
This fear keeps us spending more money than our bank accounts have.
This fear keeps us putting too many filters over our picture and cropping out the less than appealing parts of our lives on social media.
This fear keeps us saying "I'm blessed" or "God is good" or "I'm good! You?" whenever people ask us how we are are, believing the lie that they can't handle how we really are.
Let's all stop it. Time is short. Our lives are but a vapor (James 4:14).
What is your thing? Do it scared.
Not sure yet what your thing is? That's OK. Do the next thing scared. Ask for help. Share some dreams with others. Start serving somewhere. Put yourself out there today. Stop waiting for what could be or what's next to make it better. Now, today, do it scared.